Monday, November 21, 2011

The Lord is my Shepherd

Tonight, I've been praying to God and repenting for making idols in my life.  Maybe not large, or obvious things, but certainly things I've devoted myself to more than Him.  I've felt as though I needed those things or idols in my life to be me.  As I prayed I begged God to reveal Himself to me and show me why I've thought I've needed those things/idols more than Him.  As I meditated and prayed God spoke to me the phrase "The Lord is my shepherd," and suddenly a light came on and I turned as quickly as I could to Psalm 23.  I didn't even know I had that scripture memorized but God led me to where it is spoken, it amazed me to see this,  "The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not want."  As I cried out for an answer to my problem of creating idols, he led me to His Word.  I will try to explain as God seems to be explaining to me. 
If God is my shepherd, than I will not be in want.  All my desires will be met, all my dreams, cares, and wants will be supplied.  I just said, "wow", because obviously in my life I've not allowed the Lord to be my Shepherd, I've wandered through an open pasture not wanting any direction from Him.  As humbling as it is to realize this, it is a truth He is showing me about myself.  As I lie here in tears from Him speaking to my heart and realizing my shortcoming, I can understand why I've created idols and devoted my time and life to them, before him.  It is because I have been in great want, desiring that comfort that only comes from my Shepherd.  
It can be so hard to look at my life humble and objectively, I suppose it is for all of us.  But what a blessing I've recieved in this moment where I've allowed myself to.  I am so thankful that God has shown me what I need to do, and how simple it is.  Trust in Him, be His sheep, hear His voice and listen to it.  I hear it all the time, just haven't been listening. 

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